Tag: The Cielem’el Cancer Journal

There was a guy in the radiation center elevator this morning whose hair looked just like mine. Chemo-pattern baldness, as I’ve come to think of it. 🙂 My hair is maybe 1/8 inch long, and I think it’s coming in pretty dark, from what I can tell. But the sides and back are of a more normal “density” than the […]

I called in sick to radiation this morning. I was so miserably nauseous all night that I didn’t sleep well, and I ended up staying in bed until nearly two this afternoon. But I still have to have radiation, and today I see the doctor after radiation, so I’m going to be here (in the radiation waiting room) a while. […]

The surgery went fine today, except that I had some internal bleeding afterward so it got more swollen and painful than they would have hoped. Boy, am I ever tired of hearing medical people use the word “hope.” The bigger problem is that I’ve spent my evening heaving my insides out from the anesthesia. I’m trying to drink lots of […]

We just got back from the towing impound yard. Mark’s car is seriously totaled! Right before the gracias milonga Friday night, Mark got a call from the police saying they had recovered his car and that it was at an impound yard in Natomas (an area in North Sac). They didn’t tell him anything about the condition of the car. […]

I completely forgot to post any photos from my Gracias Milonga to the blog yesterday. Uff da! Most of the dancing photos didn’t turn out because they’re fuzzy from the movement, but I really like the big group picture, and the one with Michelle. And of course what event photo set would be complete without the one-arm shot Mark always […]

Last night was amazing. I can’t believe how many people showed up. Actually, I don’t even know how many people there were, I tried to count in the group photo we took and it’s something over 55. Wow. And people brought me stuff! I got three bouquets of flowers, and Shaula brought me this beautiful calendar of Renaissance paintings called […]

A Special “Gracias” MilongaFriday, November 14, 2008 Cynthia Miller would like to thankthe Sacramento Tango Communityfor its heartfelt support during herbattle with breast cancer by hostinga very special “gracias” milonga! Location: Tango by the River128 J Street, Sacramento Date: Friday, November 14 Free Milonga: 9PM-midnight DJ: Mark Napier Food & beverages also included Come dance the night away and helpCynthia […]

I just got home from yoga. The pain was really bad today. I went out to a milonga for a couple hours last night. I think I only danced with four or five guys and sat out more than I danced, but still it takes such a physical toll on me I find it hard to believe myself. Just walking […]

It’s been a long morning. With fatigue really kicking in, it’s getting harder and harder to get out of bed to get fixed up and over to radiation every morning. I’m still managing to make it in time, but every day I’m a little closer to being late. 🙂 A little while after my radiation this morning, I had my […]

Wow, 200 days. Sounds like a lot. I was tidying up my office today, and came across the medication bag I used during the beginning of chemo. But as they started giving me more and more meds to counter the additional side effects I was having, I couldn’t keep all the active bottles in the same medication bag, so I […]

I have these breakdowns. Emotionally, I mean. I’m trying to stay positive, and it wears me out and next thing I know I’m having a meltdown, feeling awful either about how I feel physically or about how I’ve let it affect me or what it’s done to Mark’s life, keeping him from doing things he’d rather be doing than babysitting […]

Couple of very brief mixed-together stories from the milonga . . . There was a guy in town from San Francisco, he stopped in for some dancing on his way back from Tahoe. I remember seeing him at Cell Space and I think we’ve been introduced, but I’m not sure we’ve ever danced. But anyway, he’s really REALLY good, and […]

Not a lot to write today. I unpacked some boxes and moved a few things around in the garage, which made my hands worse and completely wore me out and I spent the afternoon snoozing in front of a long movie, Exodus. There’s a milonga tonight . . . we’ll see how long I last this time. I keep trying […]

Oh boy. The last time Seoul was here, she was still more of a kitten and could fit behind the couch . . . but tonight she got stuck! I’m home in Volcanoville for a night, having a little break. I brought home some stuff and the cats. Mizzou looked out at me in disbelief (Seriously! Mizzou has great facial […]

I can’t concentrate. I start to type and it aggravates my fingers. I put my feet up under my desk and if my feet reach the wall the pressure of the wall on the ball of my foot distracts me and I forget what I was doing. Same thing when I walk to a different part of the house. Everything […]