Tag: The Cielem’el Cancer Journal

I was pretty excited last Monday. I heard back from the Breast Cancer Network of Strength about applying for their peer counseling program and they wanted to schedule a phone interview. I was totally excited when I got that e-mail, I think it was pretty amusing to my parents to see me so excited about becoming a counselor. It felt […]

Argh, the PAIN! Someone kill me now. It’s so bad I scream if I put my foot on the ground, the neuropathy is the worst it’s ever been, and it’s because I’m speaking at this damn conference at a freaking convention center, where getting from one thing to the next is like taking four laps around a football field. Considering […]

I can’t sleep. It’s been one of those nights where Ambien seems to be the anti-sleeping pill, keeping me jitteryly awake hours past my usual bedtime, many, many hours past. I gave up tossing and turning around 1AM. My alarm was set for 4AM because of a 4:30AM call with India in the morning. Don’t think I’m going to make […]

Write, or Stir Soup? I worked six to ten this morning, then lost the rest of my day to doctor stuff, which, as usual ran 90 minutes. It’s flattering and I enjoy talking with them, but man, I already have to drive 45 minutes each way (or two hours, when it’s Sac) so if the appointment is going to take […]

I didn’t know until Friday afternoon that this is Memorial Day weekend and we have Monday off. Yesterday I did a month’s worth of laundry, and today I’ve been messing around setting up my laptop. I’ve also been reading more of Steve Pavlina’s blog and about his experiment of inspiration, and now it’s evolving into subjective reality. I just read […]

Genevieve’s wedding at Tuttu’s . . . God Artie, it was such a hard day. Did I do what you wanted me to?The Rune: Sowelu – Wholeness. And thus, more tears, but more of relief and tiredness rather than pure grief. I was doing great. I’ve been hanging out with Artie’s family, and I’ve been fine, enjoying spending time with […]

Wow, I am soooooo not in the mood for driving this weekend. I can’t decide how important it is for me to be working from my house during the ocean webinar on Tuesday. Either the satellite on the RV is truly wicked slow, or this laptop is more than just past its prime, it’s an extinct species. Too bad, I […]

I’m reading a blog by Steve Pavlina. His ideas and areas of interest are related to mine, and I’m thinking about how I may have a fulfilling life doing what I love. I’ve been frustrated at work. More than frustrated. I’ve felt my role squashed down into a mindless administrator constantly buried in tasks to make other people’s plans happen. […]

OMG, I had the BEST dream with Artie last night. I was dying to write it out this morning, but then work just had too many urgent things and now I barely remember the dream.  I wanted to write about it because it would feel good to be able to read it and remember how it felt again later. […]

Who would have thought some guy would had held a grudge against me for twenty years for “stealing” his best friend in high school. We all make our own choices, and John and spent all our time together in high school, because we were in love and both seemed to feel every experience to have a greater richness if we […]

I went into Glacier National Park today. Good thing I was in the Jeep, because the road goes down to single lane dirt road in places, and even the outcroppings look dangerous for anything tall like a van. There are signs at the gate that say vehicles longer than 21 feet or more than 10 feet high are not allowed […]

I went for a little Jeep ride in the Couer d’Alene National Forest, but it was so much like home that I decided to leave earlier in the day than planned, which was good because the drive to Glacier is all on slow roads and the whole way I was worried about low bridges, power lines, and tight turns. The […]

I drove to Coeur d’Alene today, in northern Idaho. It’s beautiful here! The lake is amazing. But the forest is just like home, so I think I’ll stay with my original plan of one night here and then two nights at Glacier. Satellite works like a charm!

I went to get the internet satellite installed today in Eugene, Oregon. This day was the purpose of my entire trip. But hell, Don (who owns the satellite place) had a practically new previously-owned MotoSat XF2, which a REALLY good dish that I couldn’t afford new (which is like $12,000 + $900 for installation). But this “used “ one (I […]

This morning when I woke up and opened the curtains, get this, Old Faithful was right there, right out my front windows! I had to walk over and see the first geyser of the morning, so I got a later start out than I had planned. I had thought I’d get up at six and get going, but since I […]