Tag: The Cielem’el Cancer Journal

I woke up early (like 5AM or something) and I got out on the road right away. I’d already been through most of the Black Hills, and I’m coming back this way plus I’ve been here many times before, so I just got back out on the road and headed west. As I looked at the map, I saw how […]

I slept in this morning until 9AM. It was the first day in more than a month that I didn’t get up at 5AM (or 4AM, or 3AM) to work. So I got a late start on my road trip, but I wasn’t too concerned because for this first night I was only planning to get to the Black Hills […]

OMG, I HATE WALKING! Mom wanted me to see this cancer walk thing they do here in Yankton. We took just a short walk around the park to see everything, and I was in agony. It was too far for me to walk. Sickening. What would have been a simple five-minute stroll two years ago is now a 20-30 minute […]

Uff da. The weather in Rawlins was AWFUL and the RV was blowing around so much it scared the cats and kept me awake. And of course release is today, so I was all stressed out like cramming for finals. But I got it all out by 7PM, and I put in a movie while I had some apples and […]

Uff da. The weather in Rawlins was AWFUL and the RV was blowing around so much it scared the cats and kept me awake. And of course release is today, so I was all stressed out like cramming for finals. But I got it all out by 7PM, and I put in a movie while I had some apples and […]

I’m working my bum off, getting up at 3AM in order to have conference calls with India and make sure we stayed on track for the release. I worked all last weekend too, but at least it looks like we’ll actually make the release date now. Last weekend it was looking impossible with the problems they had had on the […]

Went under the knife again today. Exactly two years after the first surgery, isn’t that kind of morbidly ironic? For some reason, once I was in the room getting prepped with the IV and everything, I didn’t want my parents in there with me, I just wanted to be quietly alone. The nurse brought them in for just a minute […]

Uuuuuggggggghhhhhhhhhhh. I feel awful. This new medicine is making me sick to my stomach and lightheaded. I just threw up. But I haven’t been on it long enough to know if it’s going to help with the neuropathy. I have to try to stick it out at least a few weeks. I’m already out of crackers, the only thing that […]

GOOD NEWS!!! There’s hope again, thanks to a new neurologist, a completely clear diagnosis, and neuropathy drugs that haven’t been tried yet. Today was over-the-top great beyond my conception in terms of renewing hope that some day I might be able to touch things and stand up without burning pain. The diagnosis was so clean and complete that I’m a […]

OMG, I can’t even begin to tell you how lucky I am. Night before last, there seemed to be a slightly stinky smell on the side of the house where the septic tank is. Yesterday I cleaned everything I could, and even completely drained and rinsed and dried out the entire aquarium. The top section of the aquarium, where the […]

My poor mom has a tendency of phrasing things to often walk me into saying that even though I’ve been through all this stuff, I’m making it ok and I’m happy. I always feel bad when it comes up because I can tell her I know I have a good life and it’s much better than lots of other people […]

I haven’t been writing because I haven’t wanted to post anything about work to my blog. I worked an INSANE number of hours in October, November, December, and January, and today when I had my review with Kilgore I found out that we’re all in agreement that MBBC needs a director, but that I’m not the right person for the […]

I’ve become quite terrible about keeping up my blog, and yet on a daily basis there really isn’t anything interesting to write about. I work all the time, I spent most of November and December at my parents house and worked every weekend, and the neuropathy is a constant reminder that my body is still really messed up. And then, […]

Now that makes sense, this tenor started as a baritone. His lower register has some depth and richness, but his upper register lacks the brightness of a natural tenor, so he just sounds shrill and forced to me. I love music, but after 10 bars I was ready to escape. Ouch, my ears. And the pulse of the excessive volume […]

I can almost see downtown Los Angeles through the brown greenish haze of smog poisoning the earth. Man being down here is depressing for me. I’ll be glad when I can get my rv tonight and get out of LA.