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I had a good yoga practice last night. Afterward, I was quiet and reached for my water and my sweatshirt behind me, and the woman next to me, Susan, was trying to remember if I was the breast cancer girl from the week before. We talked a little bit, and it turns out that last Friday (the morning after our […]
Continue reading »I went to my first “regular” yoga class tonight, and I was wiped out by ¾ through, my body would just shake with the impossibility of holding a position long enough to really benefit from it. And it’s not like any of it is actually hard. I mean, come on, I graduated from introductory to beginner level, not into some […]
Continue reading »[texted from the blackberry] My housekey is gone, along with the really cool red leather Cirque du Soleil keyring and small clock I had the house key-ringed to. What has me the most upset about that is losing the keystrap and clock thing, though I’m exhausted now from extending what was supposed to be five minutes of brief-post-cat-visit-running-one-errand with five […]
Continue reading »Everyone sends these nice little thinking-of-you notes and of course asks how I’m doing, and I never know what to say. I know people are genuinely concerned and sincerely want to know how I’m feeling, but it seems so wrong to just spout off a bunch of awful stuff when the person was just trying to be nice in asking […]
Continue reading »[started from Thursday’s Runes Journal] I’ve been up since 3:30AM, no hope for more sleep. I was thinking about the “why me” thing. There’s the positive why me that is altruistic . . .if it is me, then it’s not someone else, and I’d rather suffer than make or see anyone else suffer. Then there’s the karma perspective. Mom finally […]
Continue reading »Carsickness willing, I wanted to visit the cats today after lunch. And get things ready for them to “come home” to Mark’s house, to live in the guest bedroom at the end of the month. I’ve been rearranging the empty storage boxes and Peanut’s (Belinda’s tiny dog) gi-normous dog bed pad to make a nice window perch for the cats […]
Continue reading »Uff da, I am soooooo tired of taking so many pills all day long. One thing at a time, that’s how I can get things done, which basically means one thing in a day. I had to fill out DMV forms to make my Rubicon a non-operating vehicle today because when I stopped being able to go home I stopped […]
Continue reading »Monday, September 29, 2009 157 DAYS? Why is this count suddenly so seemingly ominous? I guess I’m thinking ahead to day 200 which will feel like a milestone number. To be preceded by the six-month hurdle, of course. Having a really hard time seeing, yesterday and Saturday too. I’m trying to go through the motions, but I can see why […]
Continue reading »I’m so sorry. I know there are all these people keeping up with my blog and yet I can’t seem to stay awake long enough for anything these days or be coordinated enough to think and, say, type at the same time. It’s driving me batty. I made dinner tonight (it wasn’t particularly good, though Mark complimented it), but the […]
Continue reading »Sent Mark off to milonga without me tonight. There’s just no way I’m up to the socializing and physical activity of going to do argentine tango tonight. Besides, I’m sure Mark could use more than one night off from me in a week. The weight of this thing, and how never-ending it seems even when we know the upturn has […]
Continue reading »Well today I’m apparently ready to go back in time because I wrote the date as 2004, weird, chemo brain, weird. Actually, I kept trying to get to my journal all day, but I just couldn’t stay awake, like, at all. Wake up to take pills, nap. Get waken up again to take pills, nap. Get waken up again to […]
Continue reading »I finally felt up to giving Gary an update for Chain today, though there’s not much good news from me right now. But most of this blog is about stuff that has to do with getting back to Chain or what state I’m in for getting back to work in radiation or not. Things have gotten cumulatively more degenerative (which […]
Continue reading »I actually came across some good, brief definitions of some of the side effects I’ve been having, and I thought the brevity may be useful to other women trying to get their arms around this whole wide mess. It’s continually shocking to me that any of these side effects can manifest themselves as debilitatingly as they do. Chemo Brain: Difficulty […]
Continue reading »Early evening Back to being so tired now that I can’t stand up. Talking on the phone makes me need a two-hour nap. Thinking is a burden I just can’t seem to muster the oomph to achieve. Fatigue, who knows how bad it really can get. 4AM Wow, sleep is eluding me tonight. (Oh, and the neighbor’s party is still […]
Continue reading »Ugh, new unpleasant development, not sure what kind of side effect to call this, but I’m developing a gag reflex to swallowing. Exacerbated by swallowing anything non-liquid, i.e., pills. More fun on the Miller Merry-Go-Round. On the up side, with sooooo many pills to take, about all I have time to do and think about is managing that schedule and […]
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