The sky's the limit.
I spent all morning digging around in my online mySutter pages, going through all the results they’ve posted, reordering prescriptions for next week, and understanding more about the blood work. Then this afternoon I was filling out more insurance and disability forms. Man, managing cancer really can be a full-time endeavor. So this is cool, the hospital finally loaded all […]
Continue reading »You know, when people tell me they feel bad that I’m going through this, I usually try to tell them that it’s not so bad, that it could be so much worse. And that’s really very true. I just found out yesterday that Tia Mary (Artie’s aunt, so, like, an aunt-in-law) has breast cancer. She just found out two weeks […]
Continue reading »Wow, what an awful way to wake up. And I have a terrible headache. I had the worst dream this morning. I was on my way home in the Jeep, I had just driven in on Christmas Tree Lane and gotten onto Tinsel Trail in some big snow (Tinsel Trail is the last bit of dirt road that goes to […]
Continue reading »So get this headline: “Happiness may protect against breast cancer, study suggests” (Telegraph.co.uk, 22 August 2008). I wonder if anyone saw that on the sidebar of my blog earlier this week. I swear, sometimes I go check my reader-facing blog screen just to see what the breast cancer headlines are, and this one really caught my eye. The first sentence […]
Continue reading »No such luck, on the whole let’s-hope-Mark-feels-better-so-he’s-nicer front. Keep crossing your fingers for tomorrow. We seem to both have the stuffy head thing going on, so I’ve been keeping pretty close tabs on my temperature and, though it shifts quite a bit, I haven’t gone over 99 degrees this time. Very busy day. Spent the ENTIRE morning filling out forms […]
Continue reading »Great, Mark came home from teaching last night saying he feels like he’s getting sick. He spent the day grousing around his office and I pretty much steered clear of him, it’s about all you can do when he’s in one of these bad moods that aren’t your fault but certainly feel like it when the frustration is directed at […]
Continue reading »The 19th is always a hard day, not matter what the month. I don’t even have to know the date, and then in the evening I’ll realize what the date is and suddenly know why the day was as difficult as it was. But especially now as there are just two months left and I remember conversations we had the […]
Continue reading »Ach, there are all these events coming up that require more driving and I’m dying to go home and here I get so carsick it’s pathetic. At least it’s better when I drive myself, because I drive really slow and go on the gas really gradually and really coast into the stops, and I pull over a lot to let […]
Continue reading »Anyone see that beautiful huge orange moon on the horizon tonight? Mark got back from picking up Rusty at the airport and took me in the back yard to show me this huge orange moon. Beautiful. It was of course just a beautiful moment, in and of itself. Before Mark had to leave for the airport, we’d been sitting together […]
Continue reading »I had been complaining to Mark for a while about my eyesight getting worse and worse, almost since the first chemo day, now that I think about it. I finally gave in and changed both my laptops (one of which is also connected to a 21” external monitor, which you would THINK makes the fonts large enough for even someone […]
Continue reading »I’ve gotten behind in my journaling, I can’t believe how much I’ve slept this week. And when I was awake . . . not pretty. This pain from my esophagus all the way down through my guts is just hellish. The best description Mark seemed to have understood was that it’s like there’s submarine warfare going on in there, heat-seeking […]
Continue reading »I am in shock. I had to ask Mark: “Is it really Thursday?” The last few days just haven’t existed, it’s been a blur. Mostly I slept, which is good. Pass the worst of it unconscious, sounds like a good recovery plan to me! Our network is down at the house. Actually, it’s not really down, it’s exists and is […]
Continue reading »He’s been so good, so concerned, so carefully watchful, wanting so much to do everything right when neither of us really know what the heck either of us are actually supposed to be doing or how to communicate about it. How can you not appreciate that in someone and want to trust in him completely?
Continue reading »I slept pretty much all day, except that Mark and I went to these group sessions a Sutter Cancer Center, mine was for cancer patients and his was for family & caregivers. Afterward though, he had to lave a little early and go straight to teach at TBTR, so Brian picked me up and took me to his house where […]
Continue reading »Anemia – It’s hard to say if I’ve had this, I’ve definitely had some of the side effects known to be caused by anemia (heart pounding, weakness, dizziness, faintness, and fatigue), but as far as I know my red blood cell counts are still fine in my blood draws or the cancer center would have called me to tell me. […]
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