The sky's the limit.
The cats are here!!!!! Granted, they’re locked up in the guest bedroom (hereafter referred to as the “cat room”), but they’re here in the house, and I go in to see them all the time. It is so nice to hear them purr again. The only news on the neuropathy front isn’t great . . . now besides the burning […]
Continue reading »I am so glad chemo is over. All the side effects lasted longer this time, and I can’t imagine how bad it must get when you have to do six months of chemo instead of three. It’s week 4 after the last chemo session now, and I’m still in week 3 flu-symptoms mode, along with still getting nauseas from food […]
Continue reading »The pain is an 8, or worse. All the time. Touching anything feels like I’m touching a burning pan with already burned hands. The touch of sheets burns on my toes. Neuropathy sucks. The carsickness test yesterday was a success. I can get home to Volcanoville and back without throwing up, with just average nausea really. I’m so relieved. It’s […]
Continue reading »Everyone sends these nice little thinking-of-you notes and of course asks how I’m doing, and I never know what to say. I know people are genuinely concerned and sincerely want to know how I’m feeling, but it seems so wrong to just spout off a bunch of awful stuff when the person was just trying to be nice in asking […]
Continue reading »[started from Thursday’s Runes Journal] I’ve been up since 3:30AM, no hope for more sleep. I was thinking about the “why me” thing. There’s the positive why me that is altruistic . . .if it is me, then it’s not someone else, and I’d rather suffer than make or see anyone else suffer. Then there’s the karma perspective. Mom finally […]
Continue reading »Carsickness willing, I wanted to visit the cats today after lunch. And get things ready for them to “come home” to Mark’s house, to live in the guest bedroom at the end of the month. I’ve been rearranging the empty storage boxes and Peanut’s (Belinda’s tiny dog) gi-normous dog bed pad to make a nice window perch for the cats […]
Continue reading »Monday, September 29, 2009 157 DAYS? Why is this count suddenly so seemingly ominous? I guess I’m thinking ahead to day 200 which will feel like a milestone number. To be preceded by the six-month hurdle, of course. Having a really hard time seeing, yesterday and Saturday too. I’m trying to go through the motions, but I can see why […]
Continue reading »6:30AM: Well, here we go, appointment at 11AM. Last round of chemo this afternoon, or no? I change my vote. Let’s get it over with. 150 days. How long is that? Five months. Exactly. How about that. 8:30PM: I had to decide whether to do the last chemo or not today. The new doctor (Agarwal, the lung specialist) wasn’t making […]
Continue reading »I hit my head yesterday. Hard. Under my desk, turning the aquarium back on after changing the fish water. And as I was standing up after hitting my head, I almost blacked out, and was wobbling there and started to sink to the floor with a groan. Mark came running over from his office (good thing he was back in […]
Continue reading »You know, I had meant to do all this writing today and get “caught up” on my blog, but I just feel crummy. And it’s a busy day relatively speaking, I’m waiting on the sac pharmacy place to deliver my emend, which is always stressful because they’ve missed almost every delivery they’ve committed to, and the emend is ridiculously important […]
Continue reading »What a singularly strange experience, to be able, in your thirties, to live in a body of limitations for double and triple your actual age. And to go thought it quickly, in a matter of weeks, not decades. Shocker. Hard to handle. Depressing. Nothing works. Can’t see. Can’t type. Can’t write. Can’t think. Bowels don’t work, either flush everything upon […]
Continue reading »I actually came across some good, brief definitions of some of the side effects I’ve been having, and I thought the brevity may be useful to other women trying to get their arms around this whole wide mess. It’s continually shocking to me that any of these side effects can manifest themselves as debilitatingly as they do. Chemo Brain: Difficulty […]
Continue reading »Aarrrrggggrrrrrrrrhhhhhhh! It is soooo frustrating to try to type when your numb clumsy fingertips don’t function and you can’t see the computer screen because of your failing eyesight!
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