The sky's the limit.
Everyone sends these nice little thinking-of-you notes and of course asks how I’m doing, and I never know what to say. I know people are genuinely concerned and sincerely want to know how I’m feeling, but it seems so wrong to just spout off a bunch of awful stuff when the person was just trying to be nice in asking […]
Continue reading »[started from Thursday’s Runes Journal] I’ve been up since 3:30AM, no hope for more sleep. I was thinking about the “why me” thing. There’s the positive why me that is altruistic . . .if it is me, then it’s not someone else, and I’d rather suffer than make or see anyone else suffer. Then there’s the karma perspective. Mom finally […]
Continue reading »Wow, I think that was the most I’ve ever written on a chemo day. Surprised I stayed awake that long. Today’s ambition was to tell more about the decision to go with the substitute medical oncologist lung specialist, we’ll see how much energy I have to tell the story. My first reaction, after finding absolutely zero research about the guy […]
Continue reading »What a singularly strange experience, to be able, in your thirties, to live in a body of limitations for double and triple your actual age. And to go thought it quickly, in a matter of weeks, not decades. Shocker. Hard to handle. Depressing. Nothing works. Can’t see. Can’t type. Can’t write. Can’t think. Bowels don’t work, either flush everything upon […]
Continue reading »I actually came across some good, brief definitions of some of the side effects I’ve been having, and I thought the brevity may be useful to other women trying to get their arms around this whole wide mess. It’s continually shocking to me that any of these side effects can manifest themselves as debilitatingly as they do. Chemo Brain: Difficulty […]
Continue reading »Great, Mark came home from teaching last night saying he feels like he’s getting sick. He spent the day grousing around his office and I pretty much steered clear of him, it’s about all you can do when he’s in one of these bad moods that aren’t your fault but certainly feel like it when the frustration is directed at […]
Continue reading »Ach, there are all these events coming up that require more driving and I’m dying to go home and here I get so carsick it’s pathetic. At least it’s better when I drive myself, because I drive really slow and go on the gas really gradually and really coast into the stops, and I pull over a lot to let […]
Continue reading »Anemia – It’s hard to say if I’ve had this, I’ve definitely had some of the side effects known to be caused by anemia (heart pounding, weakness, dizziness, faintness, and fatigue), but as far as I know my red blood cell counts are still fine in my blood draws or the cancer center would have called me to tell me. […]
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