cancer – day 164

I went to my first “regular” yoga class tonight, and I was wiped out by ¾ through, my body would just shake with the impossibility of holding a position long enough to really benefit from it. And it’s not like any of it is actually hard. I mean, come on, I graduated from introductory to beginner level, not into some high level yoga. And even the beginner level stuff is a strain for my body. I actually noticed how weak I am yesterday too, when I was running errands after visiting the cats. I needed an ink cartridge at the office store, and they were on the bottom shelf. Normally getting up from a squatted position like that I try to go slow to make sure I don’t get light-headed while I’m still off my heart meds, but yesterday my legs actually shook with the effort of trying to raise myself from a squat without using my arms to assist and it was a slow ascension anyway. Not just fatigue, but serious weakness to recover from too.